Trusting
On February 28, I (along with my fabulous team of Pepperdine students) will be traveling to Panama for a week long mission trip with the YWAM base located there.
By the wonderful grace of God, I’ve received generous donations from friends and family over the past few weeks. I never doubted that God would most definitely provide the funds needed for me to go on this mission trip. Next Friday (Februrary 4) is the absolute deadline for the $950 needed to go on this trip. I’ve raised exactly half of that amount up until now and as next week approaches quickly, I’ve been praying for something to happen—anything.
Last night, as I was thinking of ways to come up with this money, it occurred to me that I needed to keep my passport handy. I started digging around my dorm room for it, but it was nowhere to be found. ” great, now I have to find the money to express replace this thing..” I called my mom and told her about how much money was needed (I tried to keep her out of money issues just for the sake of her stress levels) and that my passport was missing. Calmly, she told me to look again. This was not the reaction I expected because I know that money is extremely tight back at home these days— I felt bad for not raising enough on my own. I found my passport safely hidden in my closet… She called me back thirty minutes later telling me not to worry about the money and that God would provide— God always did when I needed to go to retreat or Mexico missions in the past— what made me think that He wouldn’t provide now?
Losing that passport and then finding it again made me realize how we worry and stress out about the smallest things when actually, God is holding everything and putting all things in its right place according to His will— not mine. To me, that $950 is a daunting amount of money (especially since I’ve failed to find a single job on campus for three entire weeks) but to Him, well you know :)
I’ve been so so excited about this trip since November and I can’t help but be maybe a little bit anxious about how the financial details of this will work out, but knowing that this is all of God and of His work, I’m sure things will work out. somehow.
If you could please keep me in your prayers, that would be greatly appreciated.
Bethany Dillon - Hallelujah
I’ve been singing it all day for the past three days… it reminds me that I can’t do things with my own strength or will power… no matter how strong I’m always striving to be, I will always, always fall short. That’s where my Father steps in and literally picks me up and holds me so that I can start walking forward again.
And I could climb a mountain
Swim the ocean
or do anything
But it’s when You hold me
That I start unfolding
and all I can say is..
Hallelujah, Hallelujah—- whatever’s in front of me help me to sing Hallelujah.
